I don’t know how I have existed these eight years, nor do I want to do this life anymore. Brye’s Mom left social media and most everything else last week and I have felt so incredibly envious of her and wish I could do the same. I worry about her because I am sure we share the same thoughts and feelings since we have both suffered the same loss. I want to find her and just cry until I am dry, I feel only she would understand how I feel. She too kept busy so much so that thoughts would never creep into her mind of losing our child.